I am feeling lucky today... This is one of those rare feelings that are reserved for special days in our lives. Not many of us can boast that we feel this way every day. Maybe that's why these days are special. But I realised a beautiful thing today. I am blessed with everything I want and need, and I have more than what I deserve. I have failed to see this for a long time, and I ended up wasting a good chunk of my life living a life of despair that had no actual cause other than myself.
I have made a lot of mistakes, and failed to do the right thing more than a million times when I had the chance to, I took away the hopes and dreams of my loved ones, and I have done a lot more painful things that hurt them. Yet, here I am, unbruised and good as new because of the resilience of the love of my special people who are close to me, and that is the reason why I feel very lucky today: because of these special people who never abandoned me.
Life gives us more chances than we realise, and when we do it's already too late. But what I feel is that it is never too late as long as we have the willpower to push ourselves one more time, and another time and another. I won't count my chances anymore; I will only count my blessings. I don't remember when exactly I lost my hopes and dreams, but I will remember this date when I got everything back. They had never left me- it was I who failed to see that I still carried them with me. It is better late than never; no plan has succeeded without proper course correction, maybe I have to drift and brake and turn a lot to correct my course but I am fully prepared to do it. And what better day to start it with full confidence than the most special day of my life, 15th September?
This new understanding and realisation makes me understand how lucky of a person I am. I failed to cherish it for so long, and I am lucky enough to have not lost it until now, and I am determined to never forget it ever again. All this means that I will feel lucky everyday for the rest of my life. If I ever fall into the river of melancholy, I know where to come, this exact post, to remind myself yet again that I have everything I need and I have more than what I deserve...
--- This post is for my dearieeeeeeee (your special buddai post), my sister and my mother
